Due April 2nd, 2009

[fitmonkey]

BFP today!! :bunny::bunny:

[Erik]

:clap:

[Jen]

congrats!!!!!! how exciting!!!! :clap:

[Inatic]

congratulations!

[fitmonkey]

Thanks guys! I'm super stoked, and I'm going to keep lifting as long as possible this time. My doc told me last time, not to lift more than 20lbs, knowing how serious I was in to strength training. Thats barely a one arm bicep workout, if that.

Anyways, I have experience on my side now, and a solid base built, so I am excited to be pregnant. I'll still have time to whip my body into bikini shape for summer too, after my EDD. ;)

[Noel Clark]

Great news Congrats!

[Cindy Day]

Congratulations!
:woohoo:

[Blondell]

congrats! :clap:

[mcv]

Congrats!!!!!

[alandrum]

awesome congrats!

[Audrey]

Congrats!! :D

That was close to my estimated due date last year (was estimated 04/04/08 and my daughter was born 04/01). Spring is a great time to have a baby... not too hot yet (neither for you or for the baby), yet the nice days start getting here.

I also continued lifting throughout my pregnancy. My midwife didn't give my any weight limitations, but rather told me to go by how I felt - which I think is a much more accurate measure.

[Ananda]

Congrats! The nice thing about being due then is that you can do so much outdoorsy things with the new baby and you aren't trapped inside all winter!

[sweettart]

:yayconfetti: Congrats!

[andi]

congrats!:D

[SunlovinCO]

Congratulations!

[pixie]

Congratulations!!

Wonderful news and a great time of year for a new baby.

[fitmonkey]

I saw the baby's heartbeat a week ago. I've been sick as a dog and am on medication for it now (morning sickness), and still occasionally get sick with it. I'm thinking boy and my daughter (age2) says its a boy even though she wants a sister.
Deep down, I want another princess, because I believe siisters' is a special bond, but I'd love a boy to pieces as well.

[Anca]

I saw the baby's heartbeat a week ago. I've been sick as a dog and am on medication for it now (morning sickness), and still occasionally get sick with it. I'm thinking boy and my daughter (age2) says its a boy even though she wants a sister.
Deep down, I want another princess, because I believe siisters' is a special bond, but I'd love a boy to pieces as well.

I'm SO happy for you! Hope morning sickness goes away for good soon! ;)

[rene7465]

Hang in there...I just passed that phase. I finally feel human again.
Congrats....I am due 3/9/08

[MaryBeth]

Wonderful news! Hope your pregnancy goes smoothly.

There is so much of this baby stuff going around. Good thing it's not contagious! :lol3:

[fitmonkey]

Thanks for the kind wishes ladies!

I'm hanging on for dear life through this phase. I still get sick from time to time with the medicine, and my workouts suck balls. I'm aiming for an exercise on a body part a day. Its all the energy I got, and then some. I forgot how this part blows. Thank god for the beautiful end result.

Speaking if beautiful... my daughter won the baby pageant in our town homecoming. We're a tiny town, and its all for fun, but I'm still proud.

[fitmonkey]

Hang in there...I just passed that phase. I finally feel human again.
Congrats....I am due 3/9/08

My husband keeps saying... "Why did I do this too you?" Poor guy feels horrible, like my being sick is his fault. And if he asks me one more time, if I am normal and if I'm suppose to get this sick- I'll punch him.

[fitmonkey]

A belly bump slideshow...
http://www.rockyou.com/show_my_gallery.php?source=ppsl&instanceid=125729684
<embed src="http://apps.rockyou.com/rockyou.swf?instanceid=125729684" quality="high" wmode="transparent" width="426" height="320" flashvars="appWidth=325&appHeight=244" name="slideshowpreview" align="middle" allowScriptAccess="sameDomain" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer"/><br><img src="http://apps.rockyou.com/dot.gif"><a target="_BLANK" href="http://www.rockyou.com?type=slideshow&refid=125729684"><img title="RockYou slideshow" src="http://apps.rockyou.com/images/logo-mini.gif" border="0"></a> <a target="_BLANK" href="http://www.rockyou.com/slideshow-create.php?source=cyo&refid=125729684">Create Your Own</a>

[fitmonkey]

Its a very healthy Baby BOY!!!

[mcv]

Now you will have one of each - congrats!!!

[Noel Clark]

Congrats! I loved the slide show.

[andi]

congrats! :clap:

[fitmonkey]

Just for shits and giggles, I'll update my thread, even though I haven't kept in close contact with anyone here lately...
29 weeks and all is healthy! I am planning on a natural birth using hypnobirthing techniques. 77 days to go!

[Noel Clark]

Just for shits and giggles, I'll update my thread, even though I haven't kept in close contact with anyone here lately...
29 weeks and all is healthy! I am planning on a natural birth using hypnobirthing techniques. 77 days to go!

so glad that you posted!!! new pics?

Cool that you are going natural.

[fitmonkey]

I'll update the pics soon! ;) I'm due for an update of pics.

I tell you what- Its hard coming here knowing that year ago I was sprinting and strutting my stuff on stage and now I'm waddling... lol

[Noel Clark]

I'll update the pics soon! ;) I'm due for an update of pics.

I tell you what- Its hard coming here knowing that year ago I was sprinting and strutting my stuff on stage and now I'm waddling... lol

I am sure you look beautiful. :)

[Inatic]

I'll update the pics soon! ;) I'm due for an update of pics.

I tell you what- Its hard coming here knowing that year ago I was sprinting and strutting my stuff on stage and now I'm waddling... lol

there is nothing more beautiful then a woman with child.

[fitmonkey]

http://s13.photobucket.com/albums/a291/hunnymonkey/Baby%20bump/?action=view&current=d5f1cea8.pbw

Belly slideshow!

[Noel Clark]

http://s13.photobucket.com/albums/a291/hunnymonkey/Baby%20bump/?action=view&current=d5f1cea8.pbw

Belly slideshow!

Not too much longer now!!! :woohoo:

[Blondell]

Not too much longer now!!! :woohoo:

:yeahthat:

[fitmonkey]

Any day now! (or week) My official due date is March 31 and I am officially 37 weeks!

[fitmonkey]

38.5 weeks and still here....
I am officially done. Bring it on...all of it.

[Amy]

38.5 weeks and still here....
I am officially done. Bring it on...all of it.

:shakeithappy:

I bet you are ready! :nod:

[MichelleS]

38.5 weeks and still here....
I am officially done. Bring it on...all of it.

:clap: its coasting to the finish now.

[mcv]

So excited for you!!!

[fitmonkey]

39.5 weeks picture!! This should be the last and final addition. Then by golly, i've got 6 weeks until I hit the beach and also the water park on my vaca! That belly better be flat as my backside's gotten since I haven't been DL'ing and squatting.
http://i13.photobucket.com/albums/a291/hunnymonkey/Baby%20bump/3-09015.jpg

[Amy]

You look great!!
Almost time. :shakeithappy:

[fitmonkey]

You look great!!
Almost time. :shakeithappy:
ty!

[Erik]

woohooo

:yippee:

[Noel Clark]

You look so cute

[bamamama]

Hey - I am new here, but have seen your photo. FANTASTIC! You are glowing and your skin is amazing. That torpedo belly is going to go down in no time...Is this your first baby? Good luck and congratulations! You probably already know this, but it is so incredible how unconditionally you can love someone...indescribable!

Best wishes for a safe (and painless!) delivery!

[fitmonkey]

Hey - I am new here, but have seen your photo. FANTASTIC! You are glowing and your skin is amazing. That torpedo belly is going to go down in no time...Is this your first baby? Good luck and congratulations! You probably already know this, but it is so incredible how unconditionally you can love someone...indescribable!

Best wishes for a safe (and painless!) delivery!
This will be number 2, and the last planned baby we have for our lives. Thank you for the compliments as noone needs them more than a tired, overdue, pregnant woman!
I am still here. My official due date is/was March 31 and so I am officially overdue. I am looking forward to my birth, and using my self hypnosis techniques to have relaxing and painless birth.

[Jen]

This will be number 2, and the last planned baby we have for our lives. Thank you for the compliments as noone needs them more than a tired, overdue, pregnant woman!
I am still here. My official due date is/was March 31 and so I am officially overdue. I am looking forward to my birth, and using my self hypnosis techniques to have relaxing and painless birth.

oh my!!!! what an exciting time!!!!!!!!! anytime now!!!! :bunny:

[MaryBeth]

Hang in there! As you know, it's well worth it. :kiss:

Best wishes!

[mcv]

So it's April 2nd now. :popcorn:

[Blondell]

Hang in there! As you know, it's well worth it. :kiss:

Best wishes!

:yeahthat:

:hug: :hug:

[fitmonkey]

So it's April 2nd now. :popcorn:
And I'm "officially" two days overdue. March 31 is the OB's due date for me, but I don't have the power to change journal titles, LOL, and obviously it doesn't matter because I AM still pregnant.

Seriously I have been 3cm dialated and 50% effaced for two weeks, with this week bringing me to almost 4cm and 75% effaces and STILL flippin' pregnant. And if I may.... damn these contractions all day randomly every day. (although I reseve the right to be thankful for them later when my birth is super fast) I think I'm going to have him tonight/early AM tomorrow

[MichelleS]

:love: hang in there sounds like its going to be soon

[fitmonkey]

Goshdernit if I'm not STILL Flippin' pregnant...

[Jen]

Goshdernit if I'm not STILL Flippin' pregnant...

maybe it will be today!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

[Sandy]

Goshdernit if I'm not STILL Flippin' pregnant...

Hang in there! :console:

You know, there are some natural ways that can help bring on labour. :naughty:

[fitmonkey]

Hang in there! :console:

You know, there are some natural ways that can help bring on labour. :naughty:

In"deed"! And trust me, at almost 5 days overdue, I have tried almost everything except ingesting potions. They seemed to have gotten me well on my way but nothing is working to bring me to completion. :scratch:

I have rode my lawn mower over bumps and hills. Slides, swings, big-wheel riding, walk/running and chasing my daughter on her bike up and down the street, wood stacking, "horsey" ride giving, etc etc

[Erik]

I have rode my lawn mower over bumps and hills. Slides, swings, big-wheel riding, walk/running and chasing my daughter on her bike up and down the street, wood stacking, "horsey" ride giving, etc etc

:lol:

[fitmonkey]

Big Wheel Riding (natural induction method #6003)
pics for laughs of me at 40 weeks on a big kids "big wheel"
http://i13.photobucket.com/albums/a291/hunnymonkey/2009/Family/3-09042-1.jpg

[Inatic]

:hug:

I always had to be induced. How long will dr let ya 'go'? Any contractions etc?

[fitmonkey]

:hug:

I always had to be induced. How long will dr let ya 'go'? Any contractions etc?

Thursday is the longest she'll let me go. I am on the books for an 8am induction at 41w2days.
Whats crappy is that I'm 75%effaced and 3+cm! I should be in labor. I've had bouts of contractions, and 3 false alarms (the one got me to 3cm50% but fizzled before completion). Since then I've had 2 seemingly labor experiences, and random contractions for 3 weeks now since the first bout.
...sigh. I wonder why I got stuck?

[Inatic]

one never knows why, but :hug: as it doesnt change the anxiety or exhaustion.

My dr would have put me in.

Did you have issues with your first (daughter? ) labor?

[fitmonkey]

one never knows why, but :hug: as it doesnt change the anxiety or exhaustion.

My dr would have put me in.

Did you have issues with your first (daughter? ) labor?

I chose to be induced with her at 39.5 weeks. I had a relatively easy labor for a first timer, but I do have issues with induction now. I do not want interventions. I don't want to be tied to a bed or IV and I do not want pain medication.
Of course I am slowly watching my personal wishes fade away... there's still time though. I am trying to be positive.

[Noel Clark]

I chose to be induced with her at 39.5 weeks. I had a relatively easy labor for a first timer, but I do have issues with induction now. I do not want interventions. I don't want to be tied to a bed or IV and I do not want pain medication.
Of course I am slowly watching my personal wishes fade away... there's still time though. I am trying to be positive.

You sound like me. I was induced with all three of my girls but only when the Dr told me enough was enough and that we had waited as long as we safely could. I got Pitocin, but once my labor started they took me off ...I managed to go through labor and delivery with no other meds.

I hope you go into labor on your own soon :hug:

[fitmonkey]

I think I'm leaving soon for the hospital!
I tried Castor Oil at 3pm. Don't know if it helped but its 2am and I am about to wake hubby to say lets go!

[Inatic]

I think I'm leaving soon for the hospital!
I tried Castor Oil at 3pm. Don't know if it helped but its 2am and I am about to wake hubby to say lets go!

Hope it's birthing day!! :woohoo:

[Amy]

Hope it's birthing day!! :woohoo:

:ditto:

:shakeithappy:

[Sandy]

Lucky forward to hearing your news soon.

[fitmonkey]

I made it to 4cm but over 3 hours and the contractions spaced out from 3 minutes apart, to 6-7min, and then 10... and now back to random. I went home after 3 hours at the hospital, though they gave me the option to stay. I'm just not in the mood to pace the same hallway for hours and hours.
Poor hubby went to work anyways today. Hopefully today will still bring baby!

[mcv]

Fingers crossed for you. Come out and play baby!!!!

[Jen]

I made it to 4cm but over 3 hours and the contractions spaced out from 3 minutes apart, to 6-7min, and then 10... and now back to random. I went home after 3 hours at the hospital, though they gave me the option to stay. I'm just not in the mood to pace the same hallway for hours and hours.
Poor hubby went to work anyways today. Hopefully today will still bring baby!

SO exciting!!! I hope baby comes today for you!!! :D

[MichelleS]

Hope you are at the hospital meeting the new baby :love:

[fitmonkey]

Sorry to report... I am still here.

[Sandy]

Sorry to report... I am still here.

:console:

Your babe obviously likes close living quarters! :lol:

Love the photo on the kiddie bike!

[pixie]

:hug:

Hopefully your wee one arrives soon.

[fitmonkey]

Still here... I woke up bawling today because now I only have one day left before they induce me. I am trying now to find peace with it, but not doing a good job.

[Amy]

Still here... I woke up bawling today because now I only have one day left before they induce me. I am trying now to find peace with it, but not doing a good job.

:console:

I sympathize...I was induced with Kainoa. I will try to send you some vibes to get things moving. :hug:

[Inatic]

I hope you go in on your own.. but at this point, what ever is best for the baby.

:hug:

[mcv]

:hug:

[pixie]

:hug:

[Sandy]

Still here... I woke up bawling today because now I only have one day left before they induce me. I am trying now to find peace with it, but not doing a good job.

:console:

Focus on the wonderful moment when you hold your baby for the first time. :hug:

[MichelleS]

heres sending you so good vibes that things went well and you get some good rest and have a great time meeting the little one.

[fitmonkey]

Well he was actually 6#11oz and 20" ... quite little for 1.5 weeks overdue, thank god!
I did pretty good all things considered. I had lots of compliments on how I handled my birth but transition I admit I lost it for that 30 minutes. The staff insist I wasn't that bad, but I was not exemplary. A few things all went nuts at once during transition, which I'll do the birth story soon. But I regained composure for pushing.
I feel like a champ- all natural, with pitocin on top of broken water. Its not how I hoped but it was much much better than the first time. Its good we got Jonah out, because he did have merconium in my water already.

[mcv]

Well he was actually 6#11oz and 20" ... quite little for 1.5 weeks overdue, thank god!
I did pretty good all things considered. I had lots of compliments on how I handled my birth but transition I admit I lost it for that 30 minutes. The staff insist I wasn't that bad, but I was not exemplary. A few things all went nuts at once during transition, which I'll do the birth story soon. But I regained composure for pushing.
I feel like a champ- all natural, with pitocin on top of broken water. Its not how I hoped but it was much much better than the first time. Its good we got Jonah out, because he did have merconium in my water already.
Welcome Jonah!!

[MichelleS]

:clap: Happy Birthday Jonah! and that is such a pretty name. :love: can't wait to see some pictures.

[Erik]

:woohoo:

[Inatic]

http://i301.photobucket.com/albums/nn60/Blowm3bitchez/baby-boy-.gif

[mamaj]

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

[Noel Clark]

CONGRATS!!!

[Jen]

COngrats!!!! :hearts: I love the name Jonah!!

[fitmonkey]

http://i13.photobucket.com/albums/a291/hunnymonkey/2009/April09026.jpg

[Inatic]

Handsome boy!!!

[Erik]

Congratulations again Rebecca!!!

[mcv]

So cute!! Congrats on your perfect little family!

[Original Kloe®]

*teehee*...he's soooooooooooooooo cute!!!!! :love:

Congrats!!!!! :yayconfetti:

[Blondell]

OMG! Nice looking boy you've got there! :love:

CONGRATS!!

[pixie]

Jonah is a cute little guy - congrats!
:love:

[Sandy]

Welcome baby Jonah!

[Sohee]

Congratulations!! I've been following along :)

[Amy]

http://i260.photobucket.com/albums/ii34/marceotorres1585/Baby%20Congratulations/congratulations-1.jpg

[fitmonkey]

For those who enjoy birth stories...
Most of you know that I had a scheduled induction for April 9, 2009 at 8AM being 9 days overdue.
I checked in at 745am but my room wasn't done until 830AM. Lots of babies all poured in that night/morning... 20+ admitted since Monday when I had me brief trip to L&D.

I got a chance to chat with the nurses in the entry way though and inquired about requesting a nurse who is partial to and experienced with natural births. One sweet lady "looked" into it for me. She apparently knew who the right person to ask, because despite the nuttiness of the labor floor I got what had to be the best nurse on the floor. My OB and nurse were very respectful of my Hypnobabies needs and my birth plan hopes.
I met the doc by 9am to discuss the plan and we were going to break my water and go from there, as soon as they were done getting me set up. Well, the OB went MIA until 1130AM in which I had the AROM. There was merconium staining, but not too bad. By 2pm I hadn't made a lick of progress despite contractions, which were consistant but 10 minutes apart.
At 2:00pm we agreed t start a low dose of pit. It came on hard and fast then. I did really good using my hypnosis stuff, and I think a lot of nurses were impressed. They did best to keep quiet and not disturb me. It was mainly just DH and I, who was my rock, petting me and whispering relaxation cues. Sometime after though, I hit transition. I thought my blood sugar was crashing (which it may have a bit since you don't get to eat much), though they assured me it was just transition symptoms. Shakey, disoriented, weak, panic: It was like I sat out of a deep deep relaxation/hypnosis in a frenzy. I wanted just a "little something" in my IV to take the edge off. At the same time I was htting transition, the BP cuff kept getting weird readings and beeping loudly. It broke my concentration, and DH got pissed off and thus I became very unrelaxed. My nurse was busy delivering next door and so I got some fill in, loud, obnoxious nurse. I freaked, DH freaked because he can't handle seeing me (or DD) in distress and be powerless to fix it.
Lucky my nurse came back when she did. I was screaming for help and that I couldn't do it, and please give me just a "little" something in my IV to help me relax.
Gloria, RN, said, first we need to check you and see if you are ready to push, and second of all, OB will NOT give you anything in your IV, and thirdly, you CAN do this. And oh, by the way, you are 9cm. Gloria was there for me at just the right time in just the right way.
Well, I put on my pushing baby out hypnosis CD and found it felt better to push just a little during my pressure waves. I begged for a popsicle incase my sugar was low, which I got, and between pressure waves and starting to push, I got a bite of popsicle. Alan kept them coming, and for some reason it just seemed to be a little piece of heaven.
Pushing would've continued in a mother directed, breathing baby out way, but his heart rate was dropping greatly and he was getting close to out. They said, you HAVE to get this baby out NOW. The team said, what your doing is great, but he is in distress. I'm not sure the time frame of all this but the last 4-5 pushes were all bearing down and holding my breath. Poor lill Jonah had the cord 3x's around his neck. I didn't have time to let things stretch naturall and slowly so i think I got 4 stitches for little tears. I pushed him out fast and hard and yes, that second for shoulders and head, I screamed one short loud scream. I was unprepared for him to come out so fast! I didn't even have time to think or "relax". But it was no big deal... it was quick.
I delivered at 4:44pm, so not even 3 hours after true labor started. He weighs 6#11oz, and was 20" long. He has smokey blue eyes, and light brown hair. He looks like...well no one in particular! Violet was the spitting image of Alan and I, and Jonah looks like ... Jonah!
Here are some not so great pics, but they are mostly all on my mom's camera except these couple.

http://i13.photobucket.com/albums/a291/hunnymonkey/2009/April09009.jpg

[Inatic]

thank you for sharing..

I had to break my water 5 times and 5 times need pit as well. I can say i pushed but one out naturally and i swore i'd NEVER do that again. I have all back labor <OUCH!>

One of my kiddos had the cord around their neck 3 times as well too.. scary but glad all ended well. He's beautiful!

[Sandy]

Thanks for sharing your birth story. You did awesome! Transition drug-free is tough! :hug:

Jonah is beautiful. I hope Violet has welcomed the new addition!

[Jen]

Thank you for sharing that!!! :hearts: Jonah is precious!!!

[mackie]

aaaww.... :love:

[fitmonkey]

I don't know really where to put this, but as I am posting a 2month update I'll leave my whining here with it. (Warning: whining to follow, sort ofanyways)
Jonah is doing well and is a much "better" baby, if you will, than my first was. I've had a wonderful experience thus far and my kids look nothing alike.
The problem lies with me. I dont know if its really whining because I do take full responsibility for my issues at hand. I NEVER thought I'd be that person that just can't get control. I can't find it within me to cook healthy foods. I hate having extra dishes, I don't like cooking, my team is limited as is.... Of course most of this is excuses because I absolutely cannot find the will to get back in shape. I look at myself and think "disgusting" but then think, "oh well." If I'm not gonna do anything about it, I"m not going to cry. I am now a frumpy, unmotivated, clothes too tight or too big, mother of two, with hair that needs a cut, bra fat, and a butt that needs a little kicked.
What the hell happened to me? I am just so burnt out. 27 and I've already given up... 1.5years after competition and I don't even know who that person was.
meh. I'm lame.

[rene7465]

Hi,
I totally understand!. I am so disappointed in my self. I was the thinnest and most fit of my life when I got pregnant this last time...not planned.
But I went along. Ate everything in site. I think I was the only nauseated pregnant person to gain weight. Plus I think since my diet and exercise was so rigid going off just made me gain weight so fast.
Anyhow here I am with THREE kids. My baby is so sweet and good. I am 45 lbs up. I have shed some but not much. I tried to go back to my Erik diet. Absolutely did not work. Too much work to cook and think about eating all the time. Then I thought I would go to WW. Did that for a couple of weeks and fell off.
SOOOO I went to diet pills as I could not gain control. So I am on a diet pill from my doctor. It just keeps me from eating too much. SO I am not gaining and have lost a few.
Can't go to the gym with my baby yet. She has to be 6 months old.
I have horses too. SO it was gym or horses. Since I have to wait til my husband gets home. I have settled into my fat self and ride my horses in hope that when August hits and I can go to the gym in the AM all will be right with the world. I have two pairs of jeans (fat girl jeans) and a hand ful of t-shirts to wear. Look like hell. Feel like a cow!
There are a 100 things I could do, go for a walk, do pushups, lunges etc... but I don't seem to have the motivation.
SO I hear ya. I think we will get it together. It just takes a bit of time.
Its not HOLLYWOOD out here!
Rene'
Hang in there!

[yosef]

Congrats on your new healthy baby and Thanks for sharing your birthing story and also how you feel after. I'm 5.5 months along myself now and I find it rather encouraging to see how everyone handles the process of becoming mommy. Sorry you're having some problems now PP and its something I definitely think about myself.

[Sandy]

I don't know really where to put this, but as I am posting a 2month update I'll leave my whining here with it. (Warning: whining to follow, sort ofanyways)
Jonah is doing well and is a much "better" baby, if you will, than my first was. I've had a wonderful experience thus far and my kids look nothing alike.
The problem lies with me. I dont know if its really whining because I do take full responsibility for my issues at hand. I NEVER thought I'd be that person that just can't get control. I can't find it within me to cook healthy foods. I hate having extra dishes, I don't like cooking, my team is limited as is.... Of course most of this is excuses because I absolutely cannot find the will to get back in shape. I look at myself and think "disgusting" but then think, "oh well." If I'm not gonna do anything about it, I"m not going to cry. I am now a frumpy, unmotivated, clothes too tight or too big, mother of two, with hair that needs a cut, bra fat, and a butt that needs a little kicked.
What the hell happened to me? I am just so burnt out. 27 and I've already given up... 1.5years after competition and I don't even know who that person was.
meh. I'm lame.

:console:

You are not lame. You a busy mother of two young children with little time that isn't spent focusing on someone else's needs. That is tough.

Are you having a tougher time emotional or mentally this time than with your first baby? You could be struggling with some "baby blues". Have you talked to your doctor?

Do you have anyone who can help out? A friend who can take your older child for a play-date? A teenager?

What will help you get back that sense of control? I know for me, a plan and a schedule helps me at least move through the motions, even when I didn't feel like it. You can also give yourself permission to not focus on your body right now if the timing isn't right. You WILL get there. It's only been two months.

:hug: