Almost Due! Scared/Excited

[PerfectAnjail]

Has anyone else experienced these mixed feelings about the birth of their first (or 2nd, 3rd, 4th, etc) child? There was a time when I wanted nothing more than for this lil one to just be born. Now, my feelings change with the wind. One second, I wish he was born yesterday, the next I am terrified at the thought!

I am so scared of all the things that can go wrong! And watching Oprah doesn't help either...I need to stop doing that....but really. I'm scared I won't be able to breastfeed. I'm scared I'll need a C-section (which I dont want), scared I wont be a good mom. Scared I'm too selfish for this, scared I'll do something wrong, scared of SIDS, scared....of just about everything. And then two seconds later I'll think..."It'll all be ok once I see him. I just want to see him"

I've also have not felt like "myself" since being pregnant. I, apparently, don't deal with having another human grow inside of me very well...which is another reason I just want him here. So I can feel like ME again. Going from loving to lift to huffing and puffing just to get up a flight of stairs can be quite disheartening.

[Blondell]

That is normal. :)

I was reday for my son to be born, but at the same time it scared me. I wanted to be sure I could take care of him and have everything he needed. I worried that I wouldn't be ready and many other concerns. You'll be fine. You probably can't tell it now, but it comes naturally once the baby is born. Some parents take longer than others to get into the groove of things, but you'll do fine :)

[ritzgal]

Yep, once he's born you'll forget everything you've gone through to get to this point. I honestly can't remember now looking back on labor much about what it was like (which I think is part of the divine plan or else we might not ever do it again!).

Seriously, this is a big transition in your life, and as such will have some big emotions involved. Just know that your life is changing in an awesome way very soon!

[H&G'sMom]

Breathe. ;)

I think everyone feels that way - especially with their first baby. It is hard to tell the difference from fear and anticipation from one minute to the next. Close you eyes, think about yourself holding that precious new baby in your arms - smelling their smell, feeling the smoothness of their skin, kissing their little forhead. That always calmed me right now and made me realize how in love I was with that little baby even before he was born.

Try not to stress about breastfeeding, the more relaxed you are, the better it usually goes. If it gets too stressful or upsetting, remember happy mommy = happy baby. ;) There is nothing you can do to control is you get a c/s or not, all you can do is wait and see, it made me feel better knowing that it was going to bring me my happy,healthy baby. I too did NOT want a c/s, but ended up needed one with my 2nd.

I always hear women talk about how they felt so great and glowing and full of life when pregnant - I think they are aliens, LOL! I was ready to be done being pregnant about 2 months after I found out - good thing there is a big reward at the end of those 9 months. :laugh: You will feel like you again - just give it time.

Breathe. You can do this, and you will do wonderful.

[PerfectAnjail]

Thank you all for your comments. I have heard much of the same from others, but for whatever reason, I just keep thinking I'm different. What if I don't have enough money, time, blah blah blah.

I get home and try to just relax, make sure everything is ready for his arrival (which leaves much of the rest of the house neglected) and just hope for the best once he decides he's ready to meet the world!

I'm not too hung up on the c/s thing. (especially since I get another 2 weeks paid leave for it) I just hope to be able to have him naturally. But, he's been kind of a strange lil one so far. VERY VERY ACTIVE in the womb. He apparently enjoys kicking anything that pushes my stomach (read: invades his space) including the docs sonic u/s. Day before yesterday, I could have sworn he was doing somersaults in there. Really, his movement was to the point of almost painful.

Anyway, I'm rambling. Thanks all for the kind words :-)

[DianeD]

You sound a lot like me when my due date was approaching. :mecry: Once you see that little face, you'll forget about all that stuff:love:

Good luck

[smiles:)]

Nope, you are not different, perfectly normal. All of it sounds very familiar. But once they are in there they HAVE to come out!

[DianeD]

But once they are in there they HAVE to come out!


:funny: :funny:

[fit'n'healthy]

My sister just had a baby and felt the same way. My neice is 17 days old now and my sister is doing great! She works in the NICU, so she is used to newborns, but new to the whole breastfeeding, bathing, etc thing. One thing she told me about breastfeeding is that it is a learning process for you and the baby, and it will take some time. She said one of the things that new moms do is give up to early on it. She's just now getting where Abby latches on with no problem....

You'll do great!

[Tina]

How are things going?

:wave:

[theresak]

Like everybody else said, your feelings are so normal. I remember with my first one, I was thinking "this will be a piece of cake". Because I had always been around babies (37 grandkids in my family). Then one day, around 8 1/2 months, it hit me "HOLY CRAP, this kid's life is wholly dependent on ME". So after a bit of panic, Ian was here and things were wonderful.

You'll do great, this will be the best time of your life even with the sleep interruptions and dirty diapers. And never forget, if you have questions or just need to vent you always got your girls here to lift you up, whenever.

[PerfectAnjail]

I am doing ok. Still pregnant...VERY pregnant. I'm due on Thursday and at this point things are starting to hurt and I'm cranky and achey and..you know, all the normal complaints at this stage I suppose. One of my friends was due 5 days after me and had her baby last week, so I'm jealous. I went to see her lil girl yesterday, for the second time. I just can't wait to have my own. Little babies are just so precious (not to mention they smell so good!).

Hopefully it wont be too long now. My mom is here until Sept 16, so she will be here to help with things that I don't know so I feel a little bit better, for now. Who knows about after she leaves, I'm hoping I'll be getting the hang of things by then.

Thanks again for all the comments and well wishes. I should have a baby any day now! (Hopefully sooner than later!)

[NCfitnessgirl]

How exciting!!! Best of wishes for you and your family!! Post lots of pics when you get a chance!

[Pandora]

Keep us updated!! And don't forget what pic whores we all are, too.

[Tina]

What they said :D

It'll be over soon! You'll get to hold your little one soon!

[PerfectAnjail]

Well, Friday will be my last day at work if he (Xavier) has decided not to meet the world yet. I will be induced sometime next week if he still has decided not to meet everyone. Here's a little for all you pic whores out there:

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/perfectanjail/album?.dir=2a90re2&.src=ph&store=&prodid=&.done=http%3a//pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/perfectanjail/my_photos

The first set were taken around...26 weeks (I think), the second set (professional pics) were taken at 32 weeks, and the last 2 were at 37 weeks. Those should hold yall over for awhile :-)

[homeschoolmom]

Great pics!!

PA, I was scared, nervous and excited all 4 times!! Absolutely normal. Pretty soon you'll have baby Xavier in your arms and will hardly even remember labor and delivery. It'll be a blur. Keep us posted!:wave:

[liberty]

Hi PA,
I am very excited to hear your birth story. I am sure it will all go great. I wanted to echo how normal all your feelings are. I remember having a little pity party before my first was born and being a little weepy about having to share my husband with another person, weird I know. Needless to say 3 babies later and it is all good. A cool thing we did just after my forst was born.... She was born at 1:30am and after we called everyone my spouse and I we still wired up and excited so at 4:30 in the morning we re-told her birthstory into his pocket recorder ( I don't know why he had that on him???) To this day that is the most vividly recalled birth. There is sooo much you forget even a few days after birth and it was sooo cool to hear the story through my husbands eyes too. I guess this could be done over video but I think that woulda made me self consious.
C

[Pandora]

Oh WOW!! Beautiful pictures. You guys make a beautiful couple. :D

[Fet]

Little babies are just so precious (not to mention they smell so good!).

well, they smell good HALF the time....:puke: :p

great pics - I love the belly-kissing pics!

Hope your little bundle of joy arrives on schedule! Best wishes, hun!

[PerfectAnjail]

well, they smell good HALF the time....:puke: :p

great pics - I love the belly-kissing pics!

Hope your little bundle of joy arrives on schedule! Best wishes, hun!


Well yea, but hopefully I'll be Bfing, so he wont smell too rancid that other half of the time. (so i've heard)

yea, those are my favorite too. i'm glad everyone thinks they're great pics. no one can tell that he only got like 3 hrs of sleep b/c he was out drinking the night before and i was more than pissed off at him? well, we're good actors.

Thanks...I hope so too...maybe I'll be one of those few that actually have the baby ON the due date! Or that's just wishful thinking.

[PerfectAnjail]

MY UPDATE:

At yesterday's appt, I was 2cm dilated and 70% effaced!! WOOO-HOOOO!:clap:

Then I realized how close it is to having him here and those same confused feelings came up, but I think I'm ready. So I so I will be doing plenty of walking here in the next couple of days, if I have that long! :-)

[Fet]

Woohoo! Keep us posted, ok?

Don't be nervous - you'll do FINE!!

[Pandora]

YAY!! Fantastic. :D

[Tina]

:yahoo:

[PerfectAnjail]

That lil guy makes me laugh..hehe

[MJJR]

OOOO How exciting!!

[Pandora]

Just bumping this so it stays near the top. :)

[KatieB]

Where's that baby? :)

[hydrick]

any news on the little bugger.

[PerfectAnjail]

Thanks for bumping and wondering what's going on. I had Xavier on 29 Aug 06 at 0330. There's a loooong labor story, but here's the short version.

Went into labor at home around 6:30p the night before. Made it to the hospital around 7:30p. Made my way to an actual delivery room around...8:30 (maybe, dont really remember). I was about 3-4cm dilated when I first arrived at the hospital. I was 10cm around 1:00am and began pushing not too long after that. 3rd push, I informed the nurses I couldnt feel him moving (which I kept telling them). 2 hrs later the nurses finally figured out that he wasnt fitting and that I needed a C-section. Doctor on call hadnt showed up neither had the surgery team. I waited for them for abou 30 min while still in 3rd stage of active labor...no drugs. Had Xavier at 3:30am.

BFing is going well. I am pretty sure I'll be able to keep it up. Now I just need a pump so I'm not the ONLY one feeding him all the time.

Thanks everyone for all your support!!

Oh, some pics of him (taken while I was still getting stitched up) can be found at http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/perfectanjail/album?.dir=5c8bre2&.src=ph&store=&prodid=&.done=http%3a//pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/perfectanjail/my_photos

[Fet]

:clap: Congratulations! Awesome work, Mom! Dad looks proud as punch! I'm sorry you had to go thru so much crap before the delivery, but I'm glad it all worked out. Good luck with the BF - drink LOTS of fluids, and try to rest when you can (haha)

[Strive2Define]

Congratulations!! Beautiful baby!!

[KatieB]

Sorry you had to deal with all that bologna, but what a cutie!!! I love his little inky feet lol.

Congratulations, and good luck!

[MicheleSC]

Congratulations! Glad to hear things are going well.

[Cathou]

Congratulations!!!!

I enjoyed looking at the pics. :clap:

[lara]

I love baby stories! Congratulations!! :)

[Tina]

Congrats!!!!!:clap: :clap: :clap:

[PerfectAnjail]

Thanks everyone! Yes, it was a hard labor. But when I think about it, I really dont even remember most of it. Nature's way of making sure we actually want another one I guess.

I love him to death though and normally just sit and stare at him. (SO isn't liking the lack of attention though...lol)

[homeschoolmom]

Congratulations!!! :party2: He's a beautiful baby!

[Pandora]

Awww!!! I go away for a few days and you have a baby!! LOL!

He's adorable!!! Congrats. :D

[theresak]

Congratulations! He's beautiful!!

[mamaj]

Congradulations, what a joy!

[PerfectAnjail]

Everyone, check out my avi!!

[Hoochiemomma]

What a sweetie - Congratulations!

[Tina]

Awwwweee that's so nice!!!!!!!

[GraceGirl]

What a beautiful baby!!! Children are such a blessing!

[theresak]

Love the avi! So precious.

[PerfectAnjail]

Thank you all! (for putting up with me) I'm definitely in "everyone look at my beautiful baby, but please don't touch or get to close even if you think you might not be perfectly healthy! And heaven for bid you touch him without washing your hands or at least using the sanitizer.

Bear with me, my first child. Hopefully I wont be so obsessive for too long. I'm starting to annoy myself :lol3:

[mardgra426]

Thank you all! (for putting up with me) I'm definitely in "everyone look at my beautiful baby, but please don't touch or get to close even if you think you might not be perfectly healthy! And heaven for bid you touch him without washing your hands or at least using the sanitizer.

Bear with me, my first child. Hopefully I wont be so obsessive for too long. I'm starting to annoy myself :lol3:
He's perfect!!

I was the same exact way with my first ( and only) baby!!! It's totally normal to feel like this.
I hated it when a stranger would touch her face w/o asking. But I thought it was very nice when people actually did ask to touch her hands.
Take care of yourself. How are you feeling??

[PerfectAnjail]

I am feeling ok. Just tired. He decided that he didn't want to sleep last night, and I was already beat from that day. Every now and then I think "How am I going to be able to do this?" My SO and I are going to break up. We were trying to stay together for the baby, but we both know that wont work. It's on good terms, but it still leaves me kind of worried. He can work up to 65 hours per week, so I am essentially raising the kid myself anyway. I just have to live each day one at a time I guess. My love for the little one is very good motivation!

[mardgra426]

I am feeling ok. Just tired. He decided that he didn't want to sleep last night, and I was already beat from that day. Every now and then I think "How am I going to be able to do this?" My SO and I are going to break up. We were trying to stay together for the baby, but we both know that wont work. It's on good terms, but it still leaves me kind of worried. He can work up to 65 hours per week, so I am essentially raising the kid myself anyway. I just have to live each day one at a time I guess. My love for the little one is very good motivation!
Glad to hear you are feeling ok.....so sorry about you and your SO. But you seem to have a very good attitude about the whole situation. Being there and being strong for your son is esential right now. You seem to have a handle on that too. Keep your head up girl!!

[Ana]

Thank you all! (for putting up with me) I'm definitely in "everyone look at my beautiful baby, but please don't touch or get to close even if you think you might not be perfectly healthy! And heaven for bid you touch him without washing your hands or at least using the sanitizer.

Bear with me, my first child. Hopefully I wont be so obsessive for too long. I'm starting to annoy myself :lol3:
Nope never wears off. My daughter is 4 and I still get angry when ppl get too close, or offer her something to eat.:funny:

[Jypsie]

I saw this and I thought "that poor girl, hasn't she had the baby yet? She's been "almost due" for weeks!" Then I saw the pic. He's beautiful. Congratulations :)