Hey everyone, I don't know which forum to put this in so i put it in the beginner one cause i feel like a beginner again LOL I'm the ever-classic case of an over-dieted, over-cardiod physique athlete [fitness]. I"m stuck in that awful cycle of gaining and losing the same 40 pounds and every show gets harder and more aggressive, and my body fights back even harder. Then I injured my knee and had to stop doing all my off-season cardio (yup) and even with my diet, i'm watching the weight pack on at an un proportional rate. So. It was a wake up call that my system is F****D and i HAVE to stop this roller coaster. I have to accept abandoning all competitive plans and focus on recovery and helping my body get "normal". I need to stop fighting with it. I'm at the precipice of diving into the unknown and it's so scary. I think i have all the same fears and questions as everyone else who has been through this experience and from the testimonials i've read on leanbodiesconsulting, i see many girls have been through this and came out healthy and happy. I was hoping some of you lovely lady "survivors" could post some of their insights and encouragement. I'm scared, depressed and kinda feel like crying actually.